The grass is only greener if you look where it is greener

So it's been six months now that I've been off work on stress leave and trying to 'find' myself. And yes, I'm finally admitting that not passing probation on a level one job, especially when I've held positions in the company as far up as Assistant Branch Manager is crushing on the confidence. I know that there was politics involved, that my boss was a jerk, that everyone there is crazy...BUT...the fact is, it still sucks big time. What I am trying to do these days is taking ownership of my life. Especially now that I don't think medications are in control of my brain any longer. So what does ownership look like. Well, one thing I have realized is it is not trying to be someone I'm not. Why do we always look at the lives of those we 'think' we want to emulate. For me, that is the organized person, house always tidy and running smoothly. Three healthy meals a day...(give me one, and I'll be jumping for joy!) There is certainly benefits to all of these and I will never totally give up on working in that direction...but I have been fighting these things FOREVER!
So now I want to start keeping company with people who I can identify with...like Kirsten D. and the Yarn Harlot. When I start scrapbooking and the mess just grows. That's because my creative juices are flowing! And guess what folks. I HAVE FINALLY TAKEN OWNERSHIP OF THAT FACT THAT I AM CREATIVE. I'm going to stop looking at the people that I'm not as creative as...and just enjoy being ME!
So, Jenny....when you come on Saturday the house might just be upside down and you might get a Little Caesar's pizza, but it will be served by a happy person! Hugs
Yo

Quote: Being Organized interferes with my creativity